xxsweet relationshipxx

happy one month aniversary

2010-11-21T21:31:00.002+08:00

20 November 2010

HAPPY ONE MONTH ANIVERSARY
to dear dear
due to my illness
turns out all the plan we made were screwed
no more hortpark walking
no more pizza hut
no more watching movie

but end up we ate lunch at my house with my sister
watched home movie with my siblings
watched a total of three show we rented

1] Leroy & Stitch
stitch is still so adorable as ever
and i didnt know stitch have so many cousins
which are as adorable as him
but today i know le

2] Land of the Lost
this movie is sort of like a movie
which mix both alien, dinosaur and primative together
the alien look a bit disgusting
but overall the movie quite enjoyable

3] Huendae
this movie is super nice
cried a few times cause was very sad
its about tsunami attack
and it really is touching

after that ate dinner at my house
and watched personal taste
i hope my dear dear love the present i gave him (:
thats all for today blog i guess
tomorrow work again
hope everything will be better

mc for 2 days

2010-11-19T14:12:00.002+08:00

mc for 2 days
which is yesterday and today
cause got throat inflation
flu, head pain and giddiness
seen a doctor and took medicine
now feeling much better
been sleeping the whole day yesterday
but i guess i need that rest

yesterday was suppose to meet up
with darling, elisse and nic
so sorry i couldnt attend it
dun know after this when will be the next gathering
i hope the next time my illness dun fall
on such gatherings with friends ):

overall work seems fine
but still kinda a lot of things to do
okay shall not type much today
blog another time

i hate the fact that
things lost = me

updates

2010-11-07T22:17:00.015+08:00

very long didnt get to update
was quite busy recently
so to update my birthday
there are more people who wish me
i want to thank them here once again (:

(via facebook in sequence)
- pei xuan
- subaa
- chia wee
- selwyn ebenezer
- athar

and the people who gave me present (not in sequence)
- my brother

- jermaine darling and alex

- wan ting darling, maggie ai ren and nicolette

- durges and alvin

- randell

- chan lin

i also want to thank those who make it for the dinner
on the 21 October 2010 (belated birthday dinner)
(in seat sequence)
- maggie bf
- chanlin
- maggie
- ah zhang
- nicolette
- yew choong
- wan ting (for the cheese cake too) (:
- dear dear
- elisse
- ming xuan
- darren
- randell
- james

HAPPY DEPAVALI TO EVERYONE on 5 November 2010
suddenly when this day come
i miss the days in secondary school
whereby i once celebrate depavali
with all my close friends at subaa house
i miss those gatherings
it just like it happened only yesterday
i miss everyone ):

mummy and sis went to star cruise on this day too
was kinda lonely at home
but it wasnt that bad because
at least my dad and bro kept me accompany
played monopoly deal and watch teevee

on 6 November 2010
was suppose to go for mentoring
but it was cancelled at the end
was suppose to lunch with dear dear
but then he gave me a surprise
thanks dear dear
it was very nice and
it really cheer up my day (:

and i passed my driving test (on 16 October 2010)
till now had done a few driving outside
i hope if have time
can drive all my besties around (:

i guess that so far for now
i will try to update my post regulary
work wasnt bad but quite a lot to do
i hope everyone enjoy their work and stuffs
hope everyone stay cheerful and happy (:

happy

2010-10-20T22:35:00.003+08:00

today is 20/10/2010
at this day, at 20:10
i had a very nice birthday gift
i love the gift
and i hope to love it forever (:
thanks for the dinner and the cake too

i still want to thank a lot of people
thanks darling for wishing me
thanks nicolette for the surprise
thanks darren, edward, peisheng and qinrong
for the chocolate birthday cake
thanks buddy and boss and colleague for the
banana chocolate cake
thanks boss for the purse
thank jer darling and alex for the necklace

i also want to thanks the following people
who take the initiative to wish me happy birthday
(via sms in sequence)
- dennis
- athar nee nee
- kah beng
- gregory
- durges
- chan lin
- patrick
- satheesh
- jermaine & alex
- jiaxuan
- subaa
- andrea
- dickson
- auntie
- rig papa
- hong hui
- mr cheok

(via facebook in sequence)
- wei xiang
- kah beng
- chan lin
- hui xiang
- ian
- winnie
- ting ting
- christine
- li rong
- desmond
- yong wen
- ah piow auntie
- siew ling
- wei jian
- joyce
- criz
- puvan
- andrea
- bazli
- grace
- norman
- cicilia
- brice
- yuan man
- ronald
- jun yin
- kenny
- guan liang
- tai yi
- hong hui
- ah jian
- gregory
- dennis
- kathy
- jun hao
- jermaine
- raphael
- ming xuan
- lee inn
- aivina
- venky
- shahrill
- kai ling
- kwee ming
- iris
- puay ling
- gabriel
- siew chin
- alex
- yong quan
- NCC
- stalker
- hui ting
- joshua
- ah zhang
- yong kian
- wen jun
- roonie
- luqman
- xian rong
- edwin
- noh
- min min
- randel
- darren
- kar voon
- steffi
- pei sheng

thank you all so muuch .. with loves *muacks* (:

sick and shag

2010-08-26T10:47:00.002+08:00

ahhhhh been so sick nowadays
so sick and tired
sis also sick too le
hope you faster recover
yesterday was like literally
lying on bed so shag
then tears keep dripping
cause of that stupid headache

haven been studying much these few days
i hope i really can pass the exams
but yet there are so many things on hand
i hate driving lessons
i hate driving tests
i hate school exams
i hate my love for sleeping
i hate my no motivation
i hate myself

why am i so weak to begin with
physically and mentally
why is it that i have to reject
due to me not feeling well
due to me haven study enough yet
and then get all the rubbish response
and then bear all the consequences

it sucks going out when you feeling so sick and tired
but it sucks even more when your friend dun trust you
there is nothing wrong with this friendship
it just that you always are so sensitive
it just that i always go out with you
and suddenly i dun so you feel weird
how do i have to put it so that you know
THERE IS FREAKING NOTHING WRONG WITH US
AND OUR FRIENDSHIP !!!

anyway just know that i love you as my darling
nothing changes so stop being so sensitive
doesnt mean there always have to be something wrong
i thought we been together for some time
i thought there should be trust between us
i thought you would understand me more than anyone
but why is it that it is turning the other way round

irritating

2010-08-22T16:00:00.002+08:00

" the happiest people dun have the best of everything,
they make the best of everything they have "

a quote which i found on facebook
and realize it make me think alot
it quite true after thinking

people are just not happy
with what they have now
they compare and contrast
they fight for what they dun have
but then they are just comparing
within their own internal circle
have they tried comparing with africa
or some other poorer countries
where they have nothing at all

ya maybe i have most of the things
so im just trying to be sacastic
and blogging all these crap here
which is what some of you might think
but then why compare and contrast
it just hurts even more dun they
feeling so irritated by the comparison

relieved

2010-08-11T21:20:00.004+08:00

bcomm solution selling
finally ended today at 1pm
when i walked out of the room
its like being able to breathe again
i almost killed myself in that room
because i didnt ask and shut up
but lucky managed to save it
definately is a close shave

then went to darling house
sorry darling for pissing you off
because i didnt reply your sms
but i really really didnt mean it
its coming from the bottom of my heart
gossip a lot with darling today
always got stuck at a question
and it all still leads to one thing

to love ):
or to be love (:

dun know what to feel

2010-08-06T11:22:00.003+08:00

i dun know whats the feeling now
i should be happy shouldnt i
this is what i always look forward to
this is what i always dream of
but why arent i happy

because i knew that everytime
when something happened
when i was going to give up
when i am having second thoughts
you appear out of no where

you always treated me
hot and cold
now when you are being "hot" to me
how can i be sure you wun be "cold"
at the very next second or millisecond
how can i trust you anymore
after being hurt so many many times

confused

2010-08-05T23:13:00.001+08:00

是因为他是他
还是他很像你

是因为你是你
还是你很像他

confused among thoughts
who can sort it out :X

miracles do happen

2010-07-29T22:52:00.002+08:00

thank you for taking initiative
i am glad and happy that you did
sorry i had so little trust in you
you were right nothing had changed
i promise you i will wait no matter what
concentrate on you review
and we will talk after that
i will be here if you need me (:

and to my darling please cheer up ok
i will be here no matter what okay
and thank you for the ice cream
that you treat me just now (:

now i believe miracles do happen
but im afraid of one thing
im afraid that i would wake up
and find that it is all just a dream
if this is just a dream i am having
then i hope that it will be with me
everytime i fell asleep at night

story

2010-07-27T22:51:00.003+08:00

Tree
====

The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, doesn't have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal.

I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years. She watch me chase after gals, and I have make her heart cry for 3 years.

She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so.

My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes was filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heart ache is as bad as hers.

When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together. I know whose the guy. He has been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school.

I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile & congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. Wanted to shout but can't. Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence too.

During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then. It says "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"

Leaf
====

During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of courage. During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be describe by using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 mths. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a mth, he got together with another gal.

I like him & I know he like me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't want to make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he don't like he, why does he treat me so well. It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a gal to ask him right?

Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, love him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3 years.

Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay

Wind
====

Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 mth after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accept the note. The next day, she appeared & pass me a note and left.

Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away

It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree

I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 mths, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to me my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked "what are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her door bell. During the moment when she opens the door. I hugged her tightly. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.

i guess that the story i like
i like this line which is

"leaf departure is because of wind pursuit
or because tree didn't ask her to stay"

passed ftt yesterday at bbdc
was worried through the whole test
nothing much to write today
so i shall end here
just want to end it with one thing

if ever your heart change
please promise to let me know
thou i be sad and depressed
but i will wish you happiness

the truth

2010-07-25T23:17:00.002+08:00

[kim jong kook - today more than yesterday (eng sub)]

I Do
Can you look at one person for the rest of your life?
I Do
Can you care for someone else more than you do yourself?
I Do
I can answer whoever asks me
I Do
You, you’re my love

I will not promise you
If I knew i was going to waver, even for a little bit
I don’t start anything, If I know that the heart can heal itself

I love you more than I did yesterday
I have never met someone so important and precious to me
that it hurts, to meet you
to feel this happiness
I must have dealt with a lot of pain.

When the days are hard, it gets sad
The pain that causes the tears to come
it will end someday
the only thing that is endless is our love

I love you more than I did yesterday
I have never met someone so important and precious to me
that it hurts, to meet you
to feel this happiness
I must have dealt with a lot of pain

I dont want to do this ever again
breaking-up unless it’s a break-up to meet you once more
whenever and forever

Because it feels like my overwhelming heart will explode
because I think the person before my eyes isn’t really you
I run, and embrace the breathing you
I am the idiot, who let go of his worries

I love you more than I did yesterday
I have never met someone so important and precious to me
that it hurts, to meet you
to feel this happiness
I must have dealt with a lot of pain

outing

2010-07-24T22:26:00.005+08:00

today is durges birthday
so like to wish her
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY JIE JIE (:

planned a surprise party for her at my house
meet subaa and jiaxuan at 12 at lot one
went to buy a lot of food at NTUC
then went home to prepared
try out my sandwich maker
then add in all sort of ingredients
had a lot of sandwiches

1] double cheese
2] chesse tuna
3] luncheon meat

but in the end think eat till scared
so stop making sandwiches
when everyone reached
we sing happy birthday song
brought this strawberry cake
its name is call "sweetheart"
light the 19 candles
which is relighting candles
bad mistake to buy relighting candles
even worst mistake to light all 19
the candles sparkled and then
turn into a mini campfire
it also melt very very fast
then it almost burnt the whole cake
but lucky in the end settle le

then decide to watch some movie called "crazist"
i dun know whether the movie name correct a not
but in the end because of misunderstanding
turn out we are watching blood pledge
the sitting arrangement goes like

1] tdl
2] jiaxuan
3] me
4] nich
5] dudu
6] subaa
7] patrick
8] kenny

was very very scary and loud
i got scared a number of times [alot of time]
i am trembling and feel like i cannot breathe
and most importantly scared until going cry
what is most funny is that i feel that way even though
my hand was covering my face half the movie
each time i got scared my hand reach out for your arm
trying to get some support by holding or gripping you
but each time my fingertip touch your arm
i pulled back cause i knew i have no right
because we are no longer together
yet how much i hope you take initiative
to take this chance and grab my hands
telling me "dun be scare cause i am here"

maybe the expectation is so high
that the disappointment is so high too
but i believe if you really do that
i might continue to hold your hand
to know that you are still there
to know that the guy i like never change
the guy i like is still the old him
perhaps its not that you had changed
it is just that i lost confidence of myself
but your hot and cold do encourage that

after the movie was having split headache
i think cause get too edgy about the movie
or is it because i am tired and shag
due to the cryings in the part few days
if only i know what you are thinking
if only i can read your mind
if only i got an answer

dumb

2010-07-22T22:30:00.002+08:00

i realized how dumb am i
to cry so hard for you
and yet you dun know
and perhaps dun care

[BY2 - 爱上你]
什么都不要懂只想继续做梦
害怕醒来以后握不住你的手
是谁太不成熟没体谅彼此感受
我不停寻找着理由解释分手
心好空像没温度的气球
我的灵魂困在回忆中动也不能动
爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂
可是怀念竟比失去还要更难受
噢爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落
可惜你永远都不会懂
什么都不要懂只想继续做梦
害怕醒来以后握不住你的手
如果同一秒钟你也想起了我
心只要能微微颤抖就已足够
爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂
可是怀念竟比失去还要更难受
噢爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落
或许我永远都看不透
爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂
伤心快乐在回忆中反复的交错
噢爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落
可惜你永远都不会懂
放心我还会好好的过

irritated

2010-07-18T22:41:00.003+08:00

im feel so dumb and irritated
after taking initiative consecutively
for two days in this weekend
shit me what am i doing
i think i must be out of my mind

可是怀念竟比失去还要更难受
i agree with this sentence
missing hurts more than losing ):

tired

2010-07-16T11:04:00.002+08:00

recently these few weeks
always feel very tired all day long
driving schedule is quite pack
cause plan to settle it before attachment
sometimes almost overslept on bus
sometimes i doze off on sofa

now i sleep before 11
which is like so super early
and yet i feel tired in the morning
maybe is cause this week a bit weak
there is an on/off acute pain at my side
but im still very happy with myself
because my relationship with bro improve
i had learnt the way to communicate with him

me and jiejie finally make a plan
about something big and eventful
going to be held at my house
though the invited guests
is still not confirmed yet
everyone been so busy lately

i dreamt of you on monday and wednesday
its alternative days for this week
does that mean i will have another dream tonight?
i hope so because i didnt see you for so long
sometimes the feeling is so empty
and i really wish that you were here
in the dreams you were very sweet
and when our shoulder touched each other
there is a warm feeling spreading withing me
that feeling seems so real even in my dream
its as if the warmth is there in reality

i was thinking of giving up these few weeks
been feeling very tired of guessing
what thoughts are going through your mind
very tired of listening to song
and keep replaying a certain scene in my mind

and i hate to admit this now
that i miss you very much
and there is a verge of crying
when i listen to the two song

[5566 - 我难过]
那一年默默无言只能选择离开
无邪的笑容已经不再精采
你害怕结局所以拼命伤害
说是我擋住你的美好未来

你坚決不希望我等待
我便默默的让你走开
如今你受了伤回来
叫我如何接受这安排

我难过的是
放弃你放弃爱放弃的梦被打碎忍住悲哀
我以为是成全
你却说你更不愉快

我难过的是
忘了你忘了爱尽全力忘记我们真心相爱
也忘了告诉你失去的不能重来

[BY2 - 我知道]
从来没想过
不能再和你牵手
委屈时候
没有你陪着我心痛

一切都是我太过骄纵
以为你会懂
一直忘了说
我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由
我们都以接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后
还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时
闭着眼没有回头

答应你我会好好过
不让这些眼泪白流

depressing feeling

2010-07-07T23:53:00.002+08:00

today the depressing feelings
hovered around my side
somehow when i saw you
it wasnt the happiness i sought
been praying for few months
just to catch a glimpse of you
but yet when that happens
all i felt was sadness

when i went home
i sat in front of my com
as things run through my mind
tears dripped down my face
i cant help it though ..

because i realized something
the answer i been prepared to give you
the answer that im so confident of
the answer that make me felt happiness
doesnt seem to be the one you want to hear

the pondering for months seems to be in vain
these few months after i got the answer
i became more tired as days goes by
tired of crying when i think of you
tired of crying when i type about you
tired of crying when i talk about you
because you dun even realize
how much i needed you by my side
how much i wish to call you every night
how my hand dial in the number
and yet i had to force to cancel the call
every words you say i heard it
but is it the truth i dun even know

now i finally realized how dumb it is of me
to be so loyal to this relationship
to hold on for 1 year + going 2
because everything is just a nightmare
i hope i wake up one day
and forget everything i have had
because it wun be as painful as now

going out these few days

2010-07-02T12:08:00.003+08:00

rain
arcade
art exhibition
shopping
chatting
dinner
esplanade
musical concert
home by bus

thank you for giving me a happy day (:

got back some of my results
grace varies from B-D
no A and i doubt will get A
today going out with subaa and dudu
to esplanade again i think
then can see the same musical

米修米修..寻找我的外星爱人 ):

holiday

2010-06-27T21:44:00.003+08:00

holiday ending le
very very sad
nan de can sleep so late
and laze around all day
these few days keep having this dream
this dream about you and me

nowadays your name keep popping out
because my cousin came to stay
asked about a lot of things
had girls talk until around 1 at night
and fell asleep till the next morning
maybe the topic was always on you
so i had this weird dream

i think i wun be so sure
to release the answer so early
maybe half a year later ba

dream again

2010-06-12T16:41:00.002+08:00

yesterday i dream of you again
the you in my dream saved me
the you in my dream offer me orange juice
the us in my dream were holding hands
the us in my dream were very sweet
but when i wake up
it is all just a dream

梦最终还是梦..

saddening

2010-06-10T21:10:00.002+08:00

失去你的我昨晚在梦里
又再一次的失去了你
为何我会做这种梦
是日有所思夜有所梦吗?

在梦里的感觉我还记得
那种感觉是多么的空虚
多么的痛多么的伤心

在梦里的我落泪了
现实的我有没有落泪
那个我并不知道
但是我知道的是
那阵心痛是真实的

原来忽冷忽热的感觉是这样的

i found out le

2010-05-31T23:33:00.002+08:00

today suppose to have dialouge in the dark
but in the end due to technical error
postpone to July 19 .. was kinda dissapointing
especially when im looking forward to it
however, something cheered me up
and that is WISP and ED essay are cleared
teacher have no problems with it
now at this time when im typing
i had already submitted both of it le
so can concentrate more on common test le

then went driving
passed stage 1 review
next lesson will be stage 2

last but not least i want to thank someone
thanks to you for playing blackshot
with me and my siblings
even though you haven eat dinner
even though you are so tired
and yet you tell me its fun

you didnt know how much its matter to me
we were all very happy just now
me and my siblings were laughing here
until tears almost roll down
because we were enjoying it too
thank you so much
i guess my siblings are looking towards
02/06/2010 the wednesday night
but i guess i be studying CT then ):

happy?

2010-05-29T01:39:00.003+08:00

at least now i have some direction
i just hope you did not say all those words
just because you wanted to make me happy
i truly hope it came from the bottom of your heart
and i must thank you for being so honest
and i also thank you for having trust in me (:

left checking of ED essay
doing and checking WISP essay
and last but not least
STUDYING FOR COMMON TEST!
- tax
- afa
- ma
- audit

die so many modules to study
i just hope i pass my CT
of course with flying colours :P

oversensitive?

2010-05-28T00:49:00.002+08:00

是我胡思乱想还是这是事实
是你在乎而我感觉不到
还是你根本都在撒谎骗我
是你爱我还是是我在幻想

可是..也是我选择不放手
是我错了吗? 是该放手吧!
好乱的思想..麻烦的问题

e learning week

2010-05-25T22:37:00.002+08:00

officially my e learning week
starts from today onwards
actually wanted to wake up at 8
but then i feel so weak
nowadays when i wake up
keep having this hot and cold feeling
and my nose still running like tap

wanted to sleep and rest more
but stupid construction works
start at 815 and i was like ARGH
dun like the noisy drillings
its a surprise during dnt
i dun find all these very noisy
but that different okay
one is solid wall and one is wood

so ended up i woke up at around 1
then bathe and eat lunch
start revising for common test
so many things to do
and yet the construction is still going
so me and mum wear ear piece
me studying and listening to music
mummy playing facebook mahjong

keep doing until 7 then watch tv till 10

7 - 8 [想握你的手]
8 - 9 [曓料黑玫瑰]
9 - 10 [还在你左右]

only did one chapter so far
cause keep going off track
e learning also have a lot to do
i must board the midnight train le

thanks darling for sending me nice songs
and darling still know me best
which song i will like the most
and thanks to you
for lending me your facebook account
so that my parents can mahjong (:

my answer

2010-05-24T22:14:00.003+08:00

this week is e learning week
but today still need go back school
for WISP and ethical dillemas
showed my teacher my ED essay
and and and its wrong
so that 600+ words i write
is = deleted forever and ever
so i had to find one more topic
but found one more topic today
hope it will turn out well

had lunch then bb with classmates
now i think i pull till muscle
if not jiu sprain my arm
cause the shoulder there is aching
and since yesterday
keep sneezing all the way
have the feeling 鼻窦炎 coming again
hope it dun come so fast

i need to chiong for common test
need chiong for e learning
need chiong for driving
need chiong for projects
need chiong for essays
there are so many things for me to do
please let me have the health to complete
all these workloads waiting for me

all the happenings made me treasure him more

past few days

2010-05-21T10:31:00.004+08:00

on tuesday went to school early to do project
then go to bcomm lesson
after that have ma tutorial
and look through our ma project
after which go to mentoring
faced with some problems
but now i guess its ok le
i will just try harder next time

on wednesday is the whole day
after the whole day of lesson and lecture
went to settle the audit presentation slides
which will be presented on friday
after which go to pizza hut
had my favourite curry zazzle
then have ICE CREAM dessert !!
after which went to darling house
then went home to eat second dinner
cause mummy forget i not eating
therefore she cooked my share

for tax on thursday
i did not do my tutorial
because i was so tired on tuesday
so i slept at 11 cause cannot take it
then had ma lecture
and went to driving
today went out to the road
instructor say since the start till end
i had improve a lot so now ..
im currently going to stage 1.09
learned from the instructor
how to be more confident (:
slept early cause head pain
also didnt do afa tutorial
i cannot slack anymore
must jiayou jiayou jiayou

today had audit presentation
everything went smoothly
i suddenly had a thought
and that is also why i blogged
如果事事顺利我们..应该已三年了吧
so near yet so far

sick and tired

2010-05-17T22:20:00.006+08:00

today had ethical dillema presentation
finally one project down
lucky teacher say it was alright
class participation was also great
which had boost my group morale
thanks a lot to all my classmates
"child soldier" is the issue we are doing
realised we actually lived so well
in our comfort zone and yet we still grumble
because we had never experience hardship
i realized i learn a lot from ethical dillema
i will treasure my loved one more

finally i drive on the road instead of circuit
from today onwards i be changing groups
cause i heard my group going dismantle
so maybe will be driving honda jazz
instructor say i drive very well
so he decide to bring me to road
but when i reached the road i panicked
and i forget to do everything
i started off with a 3rd gear
and was so super shocked after that
but then instead my instructor say
"hardly have any trainee who can start with 3rd gear
and yet controlled the speed so well"

LOL dun know is really praising me a not
but i think he going to die of anger
when he was teaching me all the things on road
cause i keep panicking about everything
he even noticed that i was trembling
and that i was gripping tightly to the steering wheel

lastly just want to end up everything
i hope my darling will be happy
everything will be fine
maybe you and him will end up together
dun lose faith in what you once believe in
just make sure whatever decision you make
you will not live to regret it like your darling here
remember i love you always [muacks] (:

week end

2010-05-16T22:51:00.002+08:00

on saturday had mentoring
was suppose to meet at 9 but was late
i reached thiong bahru at about 920
taught this kid who was 5 named ryon
then do some cutting and sorting
after mentoring had lunch with darling
麻辣面 at food culture
and that is what we mean spicy
then went home after eating
start to do housework with sister
did everything quite fast
and walked with sister to block 402
treat my whole family to magnum

today is sunday
so wake up due to sis persistent tickling
watched television
and bathe and watch television again
then after which dad say want go watch movie
so whole family go watch 叶问
third movie we watched together as family
enjoyed the movie by watching and munching on nachos
then went to had dinner which was fulling
then faster rush home to chiong project

tomorrow going to have ethical dillema presentation
hope our hard work pay off tomorrow
*pray pray and pray*
if it settled by tomorrow as planned
then one project down
but still left 2 essay, around 4 project
had to settle loft by next week
already found a teacher who can sign
for me and darling loft (:

at this very moment
my heart aches so much
it is just so shitty and crappy
because im sheding tears
maybe i should learn from darling
maybe i should stop sheding tears
its a mixed feeling
jealousy, anger, dissapointment
but lucky darling know lifesaving
save me when im drowning in that pool of tears
thanks darling for listening to me ranting

list of things

2010-05-14T23:00:00.009+08:00

it been a while since i last blog
so i shall recap what happened these days
so on tuedays as usual go to class
decided on what product i am going to sell
original design manufacturer of dining furniture
for my bcomm data gathering call
after which went to mentoring at melrose
love those kids because so long nv see them
the kids have been exceptionally well behaved
even if they arent i love them loads
they are really like my own children :X

on wednesday is a whole day lecture thing
had this mock data gathering in class
with darling but then it didnt last till the end
after which played basketball with clique
but after that loads of people joined in
darling, nicolette, elisse, anna, kar voon
gregory, ming xuan, joshua, james, yew choong
+ his friend who joined halfway
sorry if i miss out any names
actually wei jian suppose to join in
but sorry to make you feel so odd one out
we will meet another week to play okay (:
after play finish basketball a lot of injuries
got blister on both of my toe
which is the same problem with a lot of others
we still play what if miss one shot
for girls have to do push up 3 times
and guys will have to do it 5 times
made a plan with darling and gregory
now every wednesday is gonna be a basketball day

thursday is a "tax" day
so went to tutorial in the morning
and ya the teacher cant remember my name again :P
trial and error for my name and still never get correct
then stupid dumb lilo say cause i too quiet
finally whole tax groups are form
so one more burden off my mind le
after lesson chiong to driving
instructor keep ka jiao and talk to me
say i scared of him and he scare of me also
but in the end had a nice driving lesson
however i didnt go out to the road though
maybe cause my driving really is lousy
average people go out on the 3rd time
but its already the 3rd time today
instructor told me actually want bring me out de
i asked him whether he consoling me arh
then we both started laughing and he said no
i ask him another question which is
given my standard wun i kill anyone
(because some things happened in circuit)
he laughed again and say not so bad la
but of course need more practise
so lesson ended and went with dad mum and sis
to bukit batok to shop shop and eat snacks
at night my arms and shoulers start to ache terribly
so rub rub a while then i go sleep

finally its like friday
but arms and shoulder still ache a lot
wonder whether its muscle tear a not
touch a bit jiu pain le
early morning is audit
thought i was late cause leave house a bit later
then on bus met taiyi
very long never see him le
saw elisse and ziyang but he wave to me nv wave to taiyi
taiyi not happy so spam ziyang sms
in the end was very hilarious
so after which had afa lesson
my tutorial answer was wrong
haha but like what darling say
take it as a lesson learnt and improve
same as the tax teacher
my afa teacher cant remember my name
because she say me and darling look alike
so i told her im the prettier one
haha so shameless right then she say okay
i will remember you as the thick skin one
so saddening but fun though :X
had lunch and i ate ALOT !!!
then went to lecture and it was super cold
during break went out to get some warmth
then met this guy at the door who look like me
desperately trying to get some warmth
dun know what took me the courage to talk
so i asked him you very cold arh
then he replied humorously
i think they can convert this to snow city
and conversation started so easily
then after lecture we say bye to each other

then went with darling and yc to westmall
when i board 61 i saw him
starting thought my eyes were playing on me
but turn out really to be him
and i believe i stand there stun quite long
finally took initiative to sms him
but all that happiness lead to disappointment
because of one thing that happened
really was so disappointed that at that moment
my whole heart felt empty .. haiz
after that ate at old chang kee
and went to darling house cause darling want accompany

friend in trouble when i went to darling house
so help out and stuff
as usual ate something at darling house with her parents
then darling drove me home
thanks darling for being there for me
i hope today because of him your weekend will be happy

stuck in the middle

2010-05-10T23:12:00.002+08:00

sorry these few days never blog
was quite busy and feeling unwell
on sat had mentoring orientation camp
had captains ball, volley ball etc
have all sorts of games which i enjoyed
but in the end when dinner time came i fell sick
after the katong laksa felt like vomitting
all the way home feel the same
lucky in the end never vomit out
the feeling is terrible
the worst vomitting experience i had
but still thanks darling for sending me home

sunday drew card for mum
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY !!

today had WISP and ethical dillema
teacher say my essay is on the right track
and that my powerpoint also on the right track
by next week going present le
hope everything will be safe and sound

a lot of things is happening within us
what is happening
i really hope i can help you all resolve
but i cant do that if you all dun want to
it takes two hands to clap
im stuck in between and i dun feel good
i dun want to see everything shattered
i am stuck with decisions
i dun even know whether i made the right one
now i dun even feel like going school
cause i have to face you all
and get reminded that a problem is existing
between the four best friend i used to have

cried

2010-05-07T22:13:00.002+08:00

today morning was a bad day
and a bad start for a friday
had audit tutorial in the morning
i did the audit tutorial yesterday night
even though i was very very tired
i did until around 1
and all the teacher could say was
" if it is going to be presented this way
then i think it will be a waste of time "

then after which realized something big
the dateline for company submission was not today
in fact it was on wednesday 5pm
and then he allocated companies to us
it is not as if we did not do our work
we met up on monday to settle everything
did he know how much work we have put in
we try our best in these things
we even settled on 2 company

i cried even though i tried to control
its a bit dumb to cry in class
never did that for very very long time
i didnt know if it was because of tutorial
or because of the allocation thing
or perhaps because of other things
yesterday night at around 12 plus
suddenly had headache and is experiencing giddiness
so didnt attempt afa tutorial
regretted a lot today cause did not understand
what the afa teacher is teaching

tomorrow will have mentoring
orientation camp
hope that everything will turn out fine
hope that during weekend can settle some things

1] WISP essay
2] Ethical dillemas powerpoint presentation
3] Managerial accounting tutorial [week 4]
4] Taxation tutorial [week 4]
5] Audit tutorial [week 4]
6] afa tutorial [week 3 and 4]
7] research on alliance human resources
8] buy mother day present and things for siblings

darling thanks so much
for being there for me
thanks for the tissue from darling and elisse
and the encouragement from airen nicolette
I LOVE YOU ALL (:

and thanks to you

first driving lesson

2010-05-06T23:06:00.002+08:00

yeaterday did work till 2
but managed to finish tax
even thou answer was not totally right
but at least im glad i have tried
somehow i became hardworking
but at the same time its tiring
tiring to keep listen attentively to lecture
tiring to stay up late to attempt tutorials

after school went to meet with subaa and dudu
congrat subaa on passing her "TP"
next up will be me and dudu le :P
we three went to eat mac then BBDC
after making my PDL , met patrick
then we all sit at canteen see see
then after that my lesson time reach le
so went out to find car number 97
say area c in the end cannot find
then found it in area b haha

before i went in the car
instructor friend told me my instructor good driver
so i orh orh and went up
haha turn out to be true
he is a good instructor
halfway another instructor join in
so i have two passsenger
when i took over the wheel was a bit stressed

at the end learned how to change gears and stuffs
started driving around the circuit
both instructor say i have talent for driving
haha dun know is they cheat me one a not
but then they say i must improve on braking
cause i always cannot managed to brake on time
in the end the instructor must keep help me brake
haha so he busy braking all throughout
and my engine keep die off
because i keep forget the clutch haha
it turn out to be better than i thought
start to enjoy it at least from today
cant wait for the next lesson on monday

today had to stay up late again
to do tutorials
really am so tired
but yet i have to force myself
i have to keep myself awake
that feeling of wanting to sleep
and yet you cant sleep at all
is very terrible indeed ):

tired tired

2010-05-04T23:02:00.002+08:00

好累啊..真的好想好好的睡个觉
有时的你忽冷忽热让我不知所措
有时的我总想些不可能发生的事

today was tiring
bcomm and managerial accounting
resume and application letter approved
should say a burden off my heart le
after school went to ate lunch at 5

while going home keep dozing off on bus
remembered somethings that happened
sorry these few days like never blog
cause really dun even have time to sleep
so cant really have time to blog :X

busy

2010-05-03T09:46:00.004+08:00

sorry haven been blogging for days
have been very busy these few days
on saturday woke up at 10 to do some summary of work
then brought lunch for sister and brother
had ethical dillema meeting at 2
thought it would end at 3
then i could start with my housework
but ended up the meeting last all the way till 6
finally we had finished discussing the whole project
just need to wait for approval
hope can faster present faster finish
then dun need to be so rush at later term

sunday woke up at around 1230
brush teeth and wash up
had lunch while watching
"转角遇到爱" with mum, sister and brother
then at 3 started to do housework
wash the corridor, wash the toilet, mop the floor
then after that learn how to cook from mum
everyone say nice but i think it is still lacking
still mum's cooking taste the best
after which wash the kitchen floor
then bathe and ate dinner
then write my application letter and resume till 1230
thought can sleep by 1
but bro ask me wait for him play finish blackshot
then he ended at 1
then he say he wanted to do his online quiz
so ended up i slept at two

but its okay cause i think can train me to sleep late
which is essential when it come to exams
now i realize that it doesnt matter that i sleep late
or even wake up early in the morning
because i enjoy the times spent with my family
and enjoy the things i do during that period of time

exercise

2010-04-30T23:08:00.003+08:00

today had two tutorials and a lecture
tutorial was tiring, lecture too
first tutorial darling jiu bring news to me le
had lunch collon and GO! marigold
then after school at 4
go mac with darling and yew choong
ate spicy shaker fries
then met with subaa and had dinner
fillet o fish student meal

then after which go studio 27
played wii sports with subaa
then at 8 we decided to walk
so walked from ngee ann to bpp interchange
in 2 hours so tiring lohs
so went home bathe and i am here writing
think sec school friends going plan for loft (:
another outing together so very happy

tomorrow gonna housework and chiong tutorials le
haiz even weekend also cant rest ):

sick and tired

2010-04-29T22:17:00.003+08:00

today lesson was short
had tax the whole day
tax tutorial from 9-11
teacher was very friendly
so i volunteered for the tax rep
and i got the tax rep position

then tax lecture from 11-1
then went home do tutorials
i really dun know how to do afa
i tried very hard i really did
haiz but i still dun know how to do

today is thurday and tomorrow friday
meeting subaa for dinner tomorrow
finally its friday
can at least rest a bit
but have so many things on for me

1] ethical dillema essay
2] ethical dillema project
3] world issue : singapore perspective essay
4] tax tutorial
5] managerial accounting tutorial
6] audit tutorial
7] advanced financial accounting tutorial
8] resume for bcomm

so many many things waiting for me
how can i possibly finish
work is never ending for me
yesterday night i fell sick
dun know how i get the flu
which never stop for whole day
ate flu medicine but help little bit only
tired and sick only at the second week
die die die still got so many week
i must motivate myself
self motivation for whole semester
jiayous joan jiayous joan jiayou joan (:

badminton

2010-04-28T23:06:00.002+08:00

today morning suppose to meet darling
but then bus too packed to even move
so cant meet so bus down to school
had lectures the whole day excluding bcomm
was very tiring listening to heavy content
had hot dog bun and bubble tea for lunch

after that went to play badminton
wished darryl tan my lifesaving instructor
HAPPY 34th BIRTHDAY !!! (:
on the way home keep falling asleep on bus
then jump up suddenly cause i thought i miss my stop
hand got blister legs are tired eyes are sleepy
and yet im still doing tutorials
i cant stop i cant lazy
i must jiayou jiayou jiayou (:

driving

2010-04-27T22:58:00.006+08:00

today lesson was great
had bcomm which is okay
then sell my costing textbook at $30
donated my company law book
then had managerial tutorial
on sunday and yesterday night
spend like 2 hour figuring a question
came up with a solution
and and and today go through answer
my method is workable
now i finally understand one thing
the achievement / happiness from studying

rushed to bbdc with darling
almost late for my basic theory test
ran in and i was right on the dot
the test just started
so did the test and the result is
I PASSED (:

dad was happy
mum was happy
sister was happy
brother was happy
i was happy
but the sad thing is
now i going to have practical
and i will have no time ):

and here is my tiring schedule
06/5/2010 [1815 - 1955]
10/5/2010 [1600 - 1740]
13/5/2010 [1410 - 1550]
17/5/2010 [1600 - 1740]
20/5/2010 [1410 - 1550]
27/5/2010 [1410 - 1550]
31/5/2010 [1600 - 1740]

and this is only for may
after booking practical lesson
realised got this peak and no peak fee
so damm stupid now then realise
i guess i must have wasted $$ on theory

im sorry im not there for you

every girl think so

2010-04-26T23:35:00.002+08:00

today is my IS day
had WISP and ethical dillemas
both was fun but im still learning
learning how to open up
i started to talk in class
at least thats an improvement

had lunch with darling, mama, ai ren
i didnt know that your words
can really be so powerful
that i decided to listen to them

for ethical dillemas
was seperated into random groups
i was group with kendrick and xie xin
decided on group project issue
my group issue is child fighter
discuss a while then release class le

after that met with darling go buy things
then went home
bathe then research on the issue
was very emo after researching
here is the link if you want see
http://www.child-soldiers.org/childsoldiers/voices-of-young-soldiers
you can hear the voices of the soldiers
i hate war ):

i realized something yesterday night
i believe it applies to most girls
at the time whereby the girl is at the
most lonely and depressed mood
she will hope that there will be this man
beside her - a man she loved deeply
helping her with the burden she have
and showing concern to her

hoping for the impossibles :X

pressure

2010-04-25T23:25:00.004+08:00

today woke up
headache was gone
so ate lunch and watch tv
then started on tutorials
im starting to stress myself
over all the tutorials

i cant seem to understand them
i even google them
just to understand them more
im trying my best i really do
i just hope i learn something out of it
but till now i cant find the answer

today is 25th april
and is also my idol birthday
happy bithday kim jong kook
hope you stay cheerful and strong
and release more nice albums (:

what do i do?

still headache

2010-04-24T20:21:00.002+08:00

today woke up at afternoon
headache was gone so was happy
then went to buy lunch for sister and brother
cause mummy went to mahjong-ing
she knew i had headache so reminded me not to do housework
but then me and sister wanted to give her a surprise
so started doing housework

- change the mattress sheet of my sister, my brother and me
- change my parent's bed sheet with sister
- wash the corridoor with sister
- wash parent room toilet with sister
- mop floor of the entire house [sister vacumm floor]
- mop/wash kitchen floor
- wash kitchen toilet

then i bathed and ate dinner that mum brought home
headache came back again
but dun feel like eating panadol
like keep depending on medication
now going do tutorial
then watch "jiu xiang lai zhe ni"
then i think going to sleep or do tutorial

anyway i just wanted to thank you
for caring and showing concern to me
it was a very happy thing this morning
to receive this sweet sms from you
thank you once again (:

tired out

2010-04-23T23:44:00.004+08:00

today suppose to have lesson at 2
but went to school at 1 to have briefing
about tonights event [movie night]
after which went to had advanced financial accounting
i listen until i dun know what is going on
its just so complicated that i think i need time
i think once i had the time i will be able to solve it
i can de i can de i can definately solve it de
haha must have confidence le cannot always give up

after which suppose to do tutorial
but ended up doing sports and slack
then went to had dinner which is tuna mayo sandwich
i also brought my favourite soya bean (:
and that is my breakfast , lunch and dinner

then went to situate ourselves for the event
YES we are ushers - a total of 10 of us
so i am in front of the lecture 26
welcoming people to the theatre
the movie for the night is IRON MAN 1
in between i had some popcorn and fried rice

being the "door woman" is so happy
because i acquainted a lot of friends
i get to know amien, the one and "cousin"
"cousin" name is called cailing
a very sweet and friendly girl
all of them accompany me by the door
cause they were worried that i be very bored
after the movie screened
went in to watch with the rest of the ushers
was hilarious and pretty interesting
but after the show end
we ushers have to pick up rubbish and popcorn also
wakaka now we understand the hard work of cleaners

after which had a splitting headache
maybe is because i had a tiring week
or maybe i stressed cause of things
went to have desserts with darling, ai ren and airen bf
had "hai di ye wen tou xue" at market
then i met hakim and "cousin"
had a small chat with both of them
then darling dad drove me home
thanks a lot darling if not dun know what time i reach home
reached home about 1130
could be later if i took bus or cab
thanks darling if not sure late till siao (:

had a tiring week
but yet i posted something
now i make it a point to post everyday
going sleep now if not headache gonna be worst
see you all tomorrow my dear readers (:

still happy but a bit angry

2010-04-22T23:27:00.002+08:00

its still a happy day overall
but today morning on the bus was so pissed off
people just dun know how to move in
there was such a huge gap
they should try to understand
put themselves in other people shoes
if they were the one running late
how would it feel to be not being able to get on the bus

bought legion dvd back home like finally
been wanting to watch it a second time
watched with my whole family
after i packed finish the study room
finally study room is clean
and legion is still as nice as it is
i wanna watched the third time again (:

[i guess i always hope for the impossibles]

another happy day

2010-04-21T18:01:00.002+08:00

today had audit in the morning
before that on way to school
was like jamming all the way
until i was in the bus for about half an hour
then before audit lesson
went to buy audit notes
lucky there are notes .. phew :X
audit was tiring
a lot of content to listen to

after that darling went print notes
ate sandwich with milo
then went to bcomm
bcomm was recap and activities throughout
learn how to start small talk
through role play of celebrity and reporter
talked about pre marital sex and abortion

after which is managerial accounting
blurred all the way
fortunately in the end understood what she teaching
its a module with heavy content
and needs a lot of attention

i will work harder to be a better person
and of course be a happy person
but of course im happy (:

happy happy

2010-04-20T23:30:00.002+08:00

today had bcomm
was very light hearted
teacher is still okay to me
lesson is quite fun to me

after that went to help at HOC
realized something which is also what i feel all along
every since like dun know when
that guys who know how to play musical instrument
especially guitar and piano + singing
is quite attractive to girls

then went for my basic theory evaluation
was nervous all the way
cause i got acqquainted with this malay guy
when i was waiting to go for evaluation
then he told me he failed
then i realized 2-3 more failed also
lucky i passed
with 69/70 so i very happy
but basic theory test is next
hope i can pass it
and hope everyday so happy (:

sunshine after rain

2010-04-19T22:24:00.003+08:00

finally everything is solved

thanks to my family for being there with me

thanks to my sister who reminded me
you can apologized even though its not your fault
like what she always do to me (:

thanks to my ethical dillema teacher who taught me
different people have different view depending on how you view it
you may be right in your opinion but not in others

thanks to lilo and stitch who gave me a wise sentence
ohana means family , family means nobody gets left behind or forgotten

thanks to my papa
who was there everytime i am down
thank you so much for being there

and nevertheless thanks to you
because it was you who gave me courage
it was you who gave me strength and motivation to hold on

and because of these people i gave in
and resolved the problem with bro
and i never did regretted it

i finally realized something
a family is broken not because it is fated to
it is broken because no one is willing to take a step forward
because no one have the courage to step forward
to mend and help to bond the family kinship

today is the first day of school
a new start .. a new life
and its a good and happy day to me
in the morning i had WISP
world issue : singapore's perspective
from 10 - 12
then had lunch with aisha and darling from 12 - 1
from 1-3 had ethical dillema
never regretted my choice
because i totally enjoyed it
totally interesting and attractive
cher want us to find a topic
i had two so far but still pondering which to choose

1] Are protesters protesting the right way?
2] Is it acceptable that bus driver,
in order to provide fast service are driving at dangerous speed limit
even in the presence of standing eldery?

after that helped out with cca fiesta
was brickering with desmond all the way
but got some ppl to joined
i joined klavieremsemble
hope i will not be too busy to cope :X
overall , I LOVED TODAY (:

deadline

2010-04-17T23:24:00.001+08:00

tomorrow is the deadline i had set
if nothing goes the way i wanted
i think that will be it
i will just treat it as it is
i will just take and go
never am i going to give anymore
giving is just so hurting

haiz

2010-04-14T22:55:00.002+08:00

以前弟弟妹妹弄我生气时
我总会伤心的哭而你会说
"弟弟妹妹不疼你不要紧
我会待他们疼你爱你"

可是如今我在厕所哭的时候
你知道吗? 你在哪里啊!

嗨..弟弟永远不懂我的心意
永远不知道我有多卖力想当一个好姐姐
永远不知道我为他付出多少
我付出的..真的不足够吗?

thoughts

2010-04-13T22:44:00.004+08:00

我从来也没想到会到这种地步
在每个角落都有你的影子
但这就是人所谓的爱情吗
谁能肯定那一定是爱情
也有谁能告诉我该这么办

人人都说我是大傻瓜
真的真的是我傻了吗
有时见面似痛苦
言语似泪水
爱情真的有酸甜苦辣

难道爱情就是默默地流泪
难道爱情就是痛苦的等待
还是爱情是无比的伤害
痴痴的等待的确很累很累
现在才发现我有多狼狈

这到底是爱情还是愧疚
许多人说那是愧疚
但这真的是我心里的答案吗?
老实说我也不知道
终究我了解了

爱情是跟着心走
就算走错了..选错了..爱错了
也都是心甘情愿的

grade is not success

2010-04-01T23:59:00.003+08:00

大木头,

just want to tell you that grade is not everything to success
doesnt mean graduate from ITE means there is no future
doesnt mean that you enter into poly there will be a bright future
it all boils down to attitude and character i guess

an employer will not want an employee who is from university
and yet he/she is short-tempered, inconsiderate and impatient
even if you are from ITE and not from university or even poly
and yet you have qualities in your character and attitude
i believe that the employer will not hesitate in hiring you

from what i know you for so long
i can definately tell you something
you are someone with good character
not only are you caring towards your peers
you will concern yourself with their well being
you can socialize with people and cheer them up
you try hard in everything you do and put your heart into it
that is all enough for a stable job with stable income

from the moment i heard the news till now
i dun know what i can really help
i seriously feel so helpless
therefore i can only write this post for you
hoping that you will cheer up after reading it
i also want to thank you for being here with me
throughout this holiday cheering me on
you are also a good motivator to me
and i am glad that i know you and that you are there
when i needed someone to listen and care
i really hope i help too when you are now
at the lowest peak, feeling so down
cheer up and smile okay (:
i will be here to be your listening ear

大木头, 加油加油加油
jiayous, gambatte