today the depressing feelings
hovered around my side
somehow when i saw you
it wasnt the happiness i sought
been praying for few months
just to catch a glimpse of you
but yet when that happens
all i felt was sadness

when i went home
i sat in front of my com
as things run through my mind
tears dripped down my face
i cant help it though ..

because i realized something
the answer i been prepared to give you
the answer that im so confident of
the answer that make me felt happiness
doesnt seem to be the one you want to hear

the pondering for months seems to be in vain
these few months after i got the answer
i became more tired as days goes by
tired of crying when i think of you
tired of crying when i type about you
tired of crying when i talk about you
because you dun even realize
how much i needed you by my side
how much i wish to call you every night
how my hand dial in the number
and yet i had to force to cancel the call
every words you say i heard it
but is it the truth i dun even know

now i finally realized how dumb it is of me
to be so loyal to this relationship
to hold on for 1 year + going 2
because everything is just a nightmare
i hope i wake up one day
and forget everything i have had
because it wun be as painful as now